omigod

I think my head is going to blow up with all the information I have recieved in the last TWO DAYS. That's it. Four classes. And there is just so much stuff being shoved at us. You know how the first day of class, the professor just passes out the syllabus and tells you what's going to happen in the class, and 20 minutes later, you get to go home? Well, not any more. My first two classes were two and a half hours long each...and we stayed for the full two and a half hours. And we got right into it.

But that's not the worst part. What I'm having problems with is the fact that we're pulling all of the information we learned from our Theory classes over the last few years and putting them into these Method classes. Which was expected, but I don't retain information for very long unless I am continually using it, or it strikes me as something very odd and interesting, like the fact that the strawberry is a member of the rose family.

But everyone else seems to be doing just fine with all this information. Or maybe they're just better at masking their confusion. I don't know. I just know that I don't feel like I'm ready for this semester at all. By all means, I am ready for this semester, according to the school. I have created and turned in my portfolio with all the artifacts and rationale statments, transcripts, resume', personal autobiographical sketch of myself, and my philosophy of how school should be. Done. Turned in, ready. But it doesn't seem like in four months I will be ready to take over a classroom and student teach. Ahhh!

I hope all this feeling of being overwhelmed goes away, but I have a weird idea that it just won't because it's only going to get harder and harder, with more and more workload piled on to us.

The nice thing? Because it's a block of classes, I have all the same people in my classes. There's only 18 of us, so that's a really small class. We have a network, we can get ahold of eachother. We all have the same things due, at the same time. We can work together. Hopefully that will work to my advantage, even though I really don't know anybody in the class yet.

Ugh. Time to relax.